It feels good knowing where I am headed. The rest will come one bit at a time…
Hi, I’m Phaedra. To start with…
…everything that exists is made of the same energy. You can’t just get ‘rid’ of bad energy…you must transmute it. I believe that we manifest, through our thoughts and actions, our reality in the present moment. There is nothing we can think of that we can’t do. When we’re true to our nature and begin to shift towards joy as our default, loving and nurturing ourselves and our gifts, it not only affects the present and future, it has the power to rewrite the past. It actually changes the energy of all the steps that led you to where you sit this very moment.
I will be 55 years old on July 6th of this year. Full transparency. That’s what I have decided. I’m about the truth. I live in Southern California with my husband of 19 years and my dog Daphne. Twenty years ago we moved to this particular town to be part of my stepson’s life. On May 19th, 2019 he graduated from college with a degree in mechanical engineering and we couldn’t be more proud of the man he has become.
Something happened that weekend, and everyday since…a feeling of freedom has been washing over me. I felt one door shut and a breeze coming from a new direction. This, this, this is why I couldn’t move a step out of this town. I have never regretted having a family and being part of a support system for a child’s success. Now, just as my stepson embarks on the beginning of the rest of his journey, so do I.
I have been on an epic personal journey over the last 17 months. It’s been rough to look at myself. The dark parts. The shadow work. To see how necessary that part of us is to be whole. Through the healing arts, I learned to begin some difficult digging up of dirt. I have to work with Dark Phaedra otherwise I have lost my way. She is my other half. It is my purpose to share this healing and transformation through my process and my creative work. I want to share how I go through daily life. Like, really. No fake Phaedra news…and this is going to be hard for me. I don’t ever video myself, I’m shy to let people know what I’m doing…there is a 1969 reel to reel audio recording of five year old Phaedra saying a whiny ‘NO’ to her father’s request to ‘say something!’ And her NOs just got louder. I don’t like to hear myself talk.
I’ve decided to go for it in a very uncharted way. On my own…I’m trading back security that I manifested for first part of my life’s journey for my autonomy. Doesn’t mean I’m picking up and leaving my home, husband and dog…that’s not how manifestation works. Well, I guess that could be the result of many steps, but I look at it like this, I tell the universe what I want and I don’t get to micro manage the path it takes to get me there. I have zero idea of how or what it will look like…unless you count a year of stalking on IG learning what its gonna look like.
Lesson 1: If you put it out there, you don’t get to know how its going to happen. Trust. I know that’s why I didn’t wish for certain things…it would have meant that something was going to change. Right!?
For those of you that know me, you have sensed a shift. Some have left and some have decided to come along on my journey.
Lesson 2: When you make a decision to better your situation, some of the people in your life will not come with you.
That’s okay. I’m the one that has changed. I wouldn’t expect anyone to do what I am doing. It is a risk that I take, it seems daily these days, that someone will think I want them to be woke too. This is a calling. To search for the truth is not for the weak. Not everyone wants to know theirs.
My hope, as a healer, is to be the vessel from where you heal yourself. I don’t know anything special that anyone couldn’t learn, as well.
Lesson 3: I can send healing through my artwork. Who knew?! Each piece of my work is Reiki’d so you can feel its energetic effects.
I’m Reiki II attuned in the Tera Mai Seichum lineage. Many hospitals in the US teach Reiki I to their staff as it helps patients relax and heal faster. In fact, a couple of weeks ago UCLA posted a study on Reiki saying it really works. I mean, it used to work 5,000 years ago, but it also works now too…that sounds like a Mitch Hedberg-ism! LOL!
That’s it for now…I will start blogging under my new blog name Unconventional Wisdom by the Secret Sorceress. You can read what I was like as Un-Shushable. Follow me on IG you will see my feed at the bottom of each page. I’m also working on my website, taking some better pictures…so check out IG for paintings for sale and updates on my next Costa Rica adventure!
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New art and pictures to come!
Go Forth and Create!