It feels good to be lost in the right direction…
Everything that exists is made of the same energy. I believe that what we do and think in the present moment, not only affects the future, it has the power to rewrite the past.
If I’ve felt something, surely you have felt the feeling, too. I tend to lean towards irony, a bit of sarcasm, tongue and cheek. I want to show you what it looks like through my distorted lense. Drilling down close…If we can look at ourselves for what and who we really are, we can change everything.
I believe that artists provide not only mystery and beauty, but also the history of our times. Our mythology.
I have a lot to say. You might say I’m Un-Shushable. Even though what I say is sometimes quite serious and holds deep importance for me, I am not a dark person. Life is absurd, and I’m not sure I understand most of what goes on around me. So maybe I’m an idealist, a child, sprinkled with a bit of wistfulness, maybe even disappointment. We pretend we understand. We intellectualize the hell out of it, but most of it is over our heads.
I’m a sensitive soul. I know what I know. We’re all born with this intuition, but have chosen to leave it behind in favor of mind logic. There is a balance. For the important stuff of life, I use instinct, gut, heart…as my compass. This is what I want to share with you. How can I verbally explain this? Have you ever loved something so much, that upon finding out it’s flaws, feel deep sadness, even disappointment? How can I begin to demonstrate and articulate these emotions so you see me? Did you know the human heart speaks in pictures, not words? This is what I’m after. To be understood and accepted. What we all want.
Although I have studied traditional figurative art, I’m interested in pushing the boundaries. I paint from memory and real life, but enjoy stretching the idea of the earthly form. A mix of abstract and reality. I paint what I see in my wide awake dreams as well as from my subconscious, a spiritual download, if you will.
I always explore color combinations and more often than not, this allows a certain mood and a story begins to emerge. The shape and posture of the underpainting draws me into the story. I am a prolific painter in the sense that I do it full time and am devoted to this process.
My work is usually about women and/or animals. I know I’m a goddess just as I know every other woman on this planet is one, also. Goddesses have no one because they belong to everyone. They travel alone and in their own dreams. They tell us that ‘selfish’ is a good word…how can we fill others needs from and empty vessel?
The stories I tell aren’t autobiographical, but they’re what I know. As it should be. We all must be our own advocates. We all know one thing well, we are experts in. I can’t really speak for anyone else.
This makes all the sense in the world to me. I don’t seek to be anything other than me. This has to be all about me. How will you understand, how will you bond with the images if I pretend? Truth and full transparency are what I seek.
The canvases are dreamscapes of my reality…after watching the 11′ o’clock news, a woman’s bedroom becomes part of the concrete jungle around her…the things we do when we have been wronged, wishing for revenge on a cheating lover. I’m interested in taboo subjects like masterbation…we feel so much shame being human.
If you find yourself on these canvases, then you might see me as well. That holds a deep connection for me that has no words. You can write your own story from what I have shown you and the art becomes the bridge between two strangers. That is success and deep satisfaction in my world. I’ve done what I set out to do. I’m curious about connection that has no words. It is something I don’t always do well verbally, but obsessed with finding a way to show you how I see things.
The body of work that I’ve created over the last 15 months has dealt with the Ancestors. I used to think I was suppose to tell their story because they could not, but in this life it’s my story to tell…because it is the only story I can articulate from a place of knowing. I’m the culmination of all that came before me and I’m honoring my lineage by speaking out in my unique way. I want them to be proud of all their hard work and sacrifice. To see that I am speaking out in ways they could not. I gain strength from the fact that we are never alone once we realize they are always with us.
As a child I thought I had been a cave painter to the ancients. Maybe I was, maybe I am now. I believe that every generation has great potential to be the storytellers of the past and the myth makers of the future.
Stay tuned for a new series of work…I’m always learning and drawing inspiration from what I have accomplished and from where I have traveled. After I reach the mountain top, I look up and I still have Everest to scale. It is about the journey, it is never ending and beautiful.