I’ve been thinking about wisdom vs intellect a lot lately. It has come to my attention, that I live far too much in my rational cerebral head space. I get frustrated trying to figure everything out…most things are unexplainable and the brain just shorts out on shit like that…Once you notice something like this, you can never un-notice it. If you do, you just get depressed. You saw it, now you have to do something about it…see what? you might be saying…the things that don’t feel right in your life.
Becoming who you really are is a process. For an artist it is necessary, how will my people be able to find my frequency, if I’m not in it? The people who feel as I do. It comes with a lot of personal housekeeping to do. Definitely out of one’s comfort zone. Most definitely…but here’s the funny thing, it is also a lot more freeing than I had first imagined. If you can see the thing that is blocking your life purpose, your soul purpose, it’s actually a relief. Phew, now I can move forward to the next step of my journey. After the initial aha, which is usually a traumatic moment or space of time, childhood for example, you become addicted to it. Weird, right?! I realized I was angry with my father for dying suddenly, so many years ago…it’s amazing to think not only was this a revelation, but it was also holding me prisoner.
I’ve been searching out ways to communicate with our oracle, the heart, ever since then. You see, the heart is more knowledgeable than the brain. When you can ‘drop in’ and feel it beat and pulse, listen…the heart tells you things…your intuition, gut feelings and personal truths…it isn’t always clear at first because our heart speaks a different language than our brain.
I think what scares everyone is the fact that this means things will shift and change. If I become the unique me that I was born to be, some people may fall away from my circle, my living situation could change…will people still love me? Maybe no, maybe yes…sometimes it’s just a tweak…sometimes it’s leaving your current situation.
Yes, things will change. Because something inside you has become stronger, more adamant, now you want people to support you in your new way of seeing yourself…if they aren’t well wishers, they will naturally fall away. They may be afraid of what your changing things means for them. Will she require me to change too? Not all friendships were meant to last a lifetime. Some just help us transition to the next step. You will find you are only sad at first, because here comes the confident real you…it may only have an eye poking out, but the process of the Pheonix rising from the ashes has begun. There is no looking back.
So, back to The Oracle I mentioned…since oracles are sought out for their wisdom, knowing all there is to know, I began to see my heart as my very own oracle. Like the magic 8-ball in my painting, we ask it questions…am I doing the right thing? What is the next step? You already have a deep knowing that can answer all the questions you have about you…what about the other stuff? Well, we can only get to know ourselves and make the changes that are needed…people will begin to seek you out, the one’s that get you.
If each of us concentrated a bit more on what we needed instead of what everyone else needed, the world would be a better place with more love, we would realize that we are all connected to every ancestor before us and each other. The heart knows.